DeZ’ah

I had to think, if I go through this pregnancy, what is my life going to look like right now? I was literally two hundred dollars away from not being able to afford my apartment or anything. I don't get much help even though I struggle, I don't get much help but you know nobody else sees that. People look into my life and like oh you have an apartment, you're always hanging out with your kids, your kids are all dressed, you're dressed; everything looks so put together but in reality two or three hundred dollars later that can be all swept from under my feet…I can give my kids this lifestyle that they're comfortable in or I can have this extra this extra child and my children will have to be three kids in one bedroom sharing one toy amongst the three of them…some people might maybe be able to make that sacrifice and think that sacrifice is okay to them and that's completely okay and that's their choice and if they feel like that that's what they want to do but for me personally that's not something that I wanted to do.

• DeZ’ah